‘We Won’t Be Right for the Rest of Our Lives’: Korryn Gaines’ Mother Speaks Out

Korryn Gaines’ mother, Rhanda Dormeus, speaking after her family was awarded over $37 million in damages over the fatal shooting of her daughter by Baltimore County police (WBAL-TV screenshot)
Korryn Gaines’ mother, Rhanda Dormeus, speaking after her family was awarded over $37 million in damages over the fatal shooting of her daughter by Baltimore County police (WBAL-TV screenshot)

In the wake of a major court victory, the mother of Korryn Gaines, Rhanda Dormeus, wants people to know exactly what happened to her daughter. In a sobering interview with Baltimore Beat, the grieving mother makes clear that family members tried multiple times to intervene and to de-escalate the situation between Gaines and police. That police were aware that Gaines was having a breakdown. That the profound pain Dormeus feels following her daughter’s death has left “no room” for anything else.


“We won’t be right for the rest of our lives,” she says.

Gaines’ family was awarded more than $37 million in damages last week after a six-woman jury found that the police response to the situation was not reasonable.

Gaines was fatally shot by police in August 2016 following an hours-long standoff at her home; they had come to serve a warrant to Gaines for a traffic violation, and to her fiance for an alleged assault.

In the exclusive interview, Dormeus reveals that Gaines suffered from lead-paint poisoning and that she battled depression throughout her life. A retired psychiatric nurse, Dormeus also tells the Baltimore Beat that officers were made aware that Gaines was likely having a breakdown.

She and other family members “begged all day” for officers to let them speak to Gaines to de-escalate the situation, but they were told that to do so would be “against protocol,” in her words. Dormeus also called Gaines’ doctor and had her on the phone ready to talk to police, but they refused to speak to her.


“I said, ‘What about flash-bang grenades and smoke bombs?’” Dormeus recalls telling police, when asking them about what action they would take against her daughter. “They said that was out of protocol because there was an innocent child there. But they ended up shooting an innocent child.”


Gaines’ son, Kodi, was shot by the police in the arm. Initially, the Baltimore Police Department claimed that Gaines was responsible for the child’s injury.

What Dormeus’ interview makes painfully clear is the innumerable ways that Gaines’ death continues to shape the lives of her family members. One heartbreaking passage outlines the effects that the deadly police shooting had on Kodi, who, Dormeus says, has become a completely different child since his mother’s death:

He’s faced with a lifetime of therapy and all of these outcomes for this type of trauma, drug abuse, suicide, lack of being able to take care of himself from depression. He suffers from anxiety, night terrors, he’s become aggressive, which was never in his character. He’s physically abusive, he’s lying, something that was never tolerated. My oldest daughter told me he has turned dark. He’s not an average six-year-old like he should be. When you know a child pre-trauma and now have to deal with him post-trauma, it’s not just a shock to the child, it’s a shock to his caregivers. You’re faced with these new challenges for something that was out of his control.


The work of surviving—of dealing with and attempting to heal Kodi’s pain, as well as her own—is all-consuming:

I’m a mess. Sometimes it gets very dark. I can’t get out of bed. Kodi is experiencing anxiety and panic attacks. I have panic attacks. Not wanting to eat. I have to force myself to eat sometimes. The sporadic crying. I just start screaming and crying. There are not even words to explain the depth of hurt and pain. I’m not even angry with Ruby, there’s no space there, there’s too much pain. And that’s how I’m able to stay focused. There’s no room for anger and pain. I’m so profoundly hurt. Especially when I know all means weren’t exhausted. There was no urgency, it was six hours later. They can wait it out for days. I was a psych for nurse for years. There’s a group of mothers in court everyday to support me and they are my source of comfort and strength. They really do understand.


In the aftermath of her daughter’s death, Dormeus has turned to these unfathomable sisterhoods: groups of mothers who have all lost their children to violence. There is even one specifically for mothers who have been affected by police violence, the Coalition of Concerned Mothers.

“It’s so profound, the connection the mothers have, because we share a common pain that nobody, unless they walk in their shoes, will ever imagine,” Dormeus says. “And I don’t want them to.”


An attorney for Baltimore County says that the county is considering filing an appeal against the verdict.



This is horribly sad. I bet if Korryn had been white, and and every measure would’ve been taken to save her—AND the standoff would have gone on uch longer in hopes of reaching a *peaceful* conclusion. The settlement money is an indirect admission of guilt, as usuall in these cases: but I’d rather see the cops involved in prison. The only money I’d accept would be on behalf of Korryn’s son-for his therapeutic and future education needs.