(The Root) —
“My ex is still in my life even though we’ve been apart since 2009; we dated for a few months. We haven’t seen each other in four years and talk every day, even though I’m taken (and unhappy) and he’s single. We never had sex during the time we dated. There are still feelings there. Our jobs are placing us both in Hawaii and I think it’s a sign. Should I explore it?”–P.A.
I’m so unclear on how you are in a relationship and your partner is fine with you talking to your ex every day. One of my best friends — other than my partner — is a man, and even when he was single and I was single, we didn’t talk every day. We’ve been friends for almost 15 years and have a great camaraderie, and yet I just can’t think of a reason that we would need to speak daily (and he feels the same). Even with my super-close lady friends, we don’t talk every day.
Now that I think about it, the only man I’ve ever consistently spoken to daily for years at a time is my father — and that’s because he calls me every single day. I moved away from home 12 years ago, and bless his heart, he misses me as if it’s the first day I’m gone. And even with him, as close as we are, and all that is going on in our worlds, there is just nothing to talk about sometimes.
What do you and your ex — your alleged “friend” — have to talk about that’s so pressing that it must be done daily? And, a better question, does your man know? Or is this a secret?
Sorry, I’ve become distracted. The answer to your query is so obvious that I must have pretended it was rhetorical or sarcastic.
Ma’am, you are in a relationship — one that doesn’t quite make sense to me. You seem to spend a hefty chunk of your downtime on the phone with another guy — notably a guy whom you clearly don’t think of as just a friend, since you think that being in the same state he’s in is a “sign” that you should explore your feelings for him. It’s not apparent how long you’ve been with your current boyfriend, but however long it is, you’ve been emotionally cheating on him by carrying on a phone relationship with another man.
Maybe your partner knows, or maybe he just pretends that he’s OK with it, or maybe he’s just doing his own thing and is too busy to care. But the fact is, you refer to yourself as “taken,” which means that you’re acknowledging being committed, even if you’re contemplating acting as if you’re not. Either way, it still means that you should honor the commitment you’ve made or else you should leave the relationship.